Zoned out.

I feel like my mind is going in a thousand directions. I can't think about one thing without it leading to something else entirely. But I'm not hyper. I'm actually very calm. It's just inside, my mind is whirling.

I don't like the new Facebook. They need to stop changing it. My baby cousin is so cute. I think he looks like Kaela more so than Mikey. Right now anyway. I need to reorganize some of this stuff. Like, those need to go in a drawer, and I need to throw those papers away. If I go to the tanning bed, I'll take a shower before I go. I just want to sleep late. He can wake me up. Is it supposed to rain again?

I won't feel guilty. I just want to make him feel good. I wonder why that's even there. Is there anything you can do about it? I really want my car back. I'm going freaking crazy. It'll be like getting a new car, because I've completely forgotten what it's like to drive it. I miss it so much. And who gives a shit about Colby? He's a dumbass. I just want him to know what he's missing out on.

But on a different note. We could take a walk when the sun goes down. Oh, there it goes. That first wave of sleepiness. I need to turn the blanket on. So I'm definitely sleeping late tomorrow. Only five more days before I get my car back. I just want to see it.

I think all my views are changing. Stuff I couldn't see before, I see now. Stuff I could see before, I can't see now. I feel differently about everything, and I can't tell if it's good or bad.

Sometimes I wish we could all be on the same page.

Second wave just hit me. I finally got that La Bouche song out of my head. I didn't turn my blanket on. Doing that now. John's not very talkative tonight. Wonder why. It's pretty much a bummer. So I'm going to bed.

Goodnight.