The snooze cruise.

Man, who would’ve thought a cruise would be so boring? And not only that, but I can’t even communicate with my own boyfriend. WiFi is $100 – just for 250 minutes worth. I mean, I guess if you do the math, it’s only like $25 dollars an hour, but who cares? For what the actual cruise costs, WiFi should be included. And sure, I have a cell phone, but we’re out in the middle of the ocean. John has called me like five times today, and I can’t answer because we’re not in a cell phone coverage area. It would cost too much just to answer the phone and talk for a few minutes. I miss him terribly though. My parents are boring, and they’re making me feel like a third wheel. They went to breakfast this morning without me. All my dad cares about is drinking, and my mom’s so ADD she can’t pick just one thing to do. And whatever I want to do, she wants to do the opposite.

I just keep having all these “if” moments. Like, if John were here, we could go down the water slide and sit in the pool on the Lido deck and watch whatever movie is playing on the big screen. Or we could go to one of the shows in the Venetian Palace. Or we could go play mini-golf on the top deck. Or we could go eat at the buffet at 2:00 in the morning. He could escort me to dinner tonight – it’s Formal Night, where everybody dresses up in their best dresses and suits. I’m wearing my prom dress. And it would only be right for him to escort me, seeing as how he was my prom date this year. And when we were at Half Moon Cay, I kept seeing all these couples out in the water. I just kept imagining how that could be me and John. It’s just so wrong to be here without him. And it’s weird because every other year I’ve been on vacation, I haven’t had a boyfriend. But now that I do, I can’t stand him not being with me. Especially on a cruise. We would’ve had so much fun together on this boat.

Y’know, it just occurred to me – I hope John was only calling because he misses me and wants to talk to me, not because something’s wrong at home. But I’m going to put that thought out of my mind. It’s just like we can’t get to St. Thomas fast enough. The first thing I’m gonna do when we get to St. Thomas in the morning is call John. I don’t care if he’s awake or not, I’m calling him.

I guess I need to stop going on and on about how I miss my boyfriend. I think I’m whining too much. But don’t I have a right to? This cruise was supposed to be for my graduation, and I didn’t even get to bring anybody with me. It’s no different than any other vacation with my parents. So yeah, I’m a little upset about it.

Anyway, I guess I’m going to go for now. My computer battery is almost dead, and my mom’s drying her hair so I can’t charge my computer. Plus, it’s almost 6:00. I need to finish getting ready for dinner. But I’ll probably be posting again at least once or twice before this vacation’s over. If “vacation” is what you want to call it.