Comfort.

I think I'm just going to take back what I said in that last post. Well, maybe not. (Hey, that was at 4 in the morning - cut me some slack, k?) I just think maybe I was overanalyzing then. Even though that was kind of the point I was trying to make.

Ugh, whatever. Anyway, tonight John and I went to the fair. Everything felt right. Comfortable. And we went to Cracker Barrel afterwards. That was especially comfortable. I made him laugh a lot, and that made me feel really good. I love to watch him laugh - it's just a relief knowing that he's laughing because of me.

And yes, I'm still over-thinking and second-guessing my behavior around him, but it's getting better. He was awfully nice to me tonight. I felt undeserving, but I felt special. When we were leaving Cracker Barrel, we were walking out into the parking lot and he put his arm around me and then when we got to his car, he opened the door for me. He opened the door for me at Waffle House too. I appreciate those little gestures. It's little things like opening car doors that make me realize how much he cares about me - and how much I care about him.

But as far as that whole second-guessing thing goes, I only get that feeling when he says or does something I find attractive. It's like I find myself making it a point not to say he's 'hot' or something. I dunno. But I'll get over it. Especially if we have more nights like tonight.

Oh, and I got an airbrush tattoo at the fair that I'm seriously considering making permanent. It's a set of stars behind my left ear. I would put up a picture, but all the ones I have are on John's camera. It's pretty awesome though. But that's just a thought for now.....

Anyway, I'm seriously comfortable right now, so I'm going to go to bed. I think I'll be able to sleep tonight. Nothing's bothering me anymore.

Goodnight.