The longest night.

Well, tonight was rather interesting for me. After John left for work, I talked to Kellie and we decided to go look at wedding dresses at David's Bridal. (Yeah, the wedding is December 19th, and I might get to be her maid of honor). Anyway, around 7, she and Joe came to my house and we left for the bridal store. Well, John texted me when we were leaving, saying something about a customer that I used to know coming into Bilo. I figured he was on break, so I texted him, but I never heard anything back. So Kellie, Joe and I left. We got to Powdersville, and I didn't see John's car in the Bilo parking lot. I figured he'd gone to McDonald's, but then when I got to the intersection of 153 and Anderson Road, I saw him standing outside some truck. I had no idea what he was doing, but when the traffic light turned green and I pulled forward, I realized John's car was sitting there. I panicked. I turned around and went back to the intersection as fast as I could. It's funny, because I knew he was alright - he was standing up for crying out loud. But it's like I had some instinct inside me that just had to be sure he was okay. He'd been in a minor car wreck. Well, it wasn't even really a wreck - more like a...bent-hood-and-scratch-on-the-bumper incident. But it was embarrassing for him. And I think it ended up messing up his radiator, but he should be able to get it fixed.

Anyway, after I waited for him to get cleared from the incident, I took Kellie and Joe to David's Bridal. Kellie found a really pretty - simple, but pretty - wedding dress that she's probably going too get when she goes back on Wednesday. I'm so happy for her. I know she's excited, and I am too. Anyway, after we dress-shopped, we went to Don Pablos for dinner. That was nice. We just talked and goofed off the whole time. All I really thought about was John though. For some reason, I still felt overprotective of him. And I think that's why we ended up going back by Bilo on the way home and waiting for him to get off work.

We were all going to go to Wal-Mart tonight when John got off work, but his car was acting funny (to say the least), so we ended up missing Kellie and Joe. It's okay though. There's always Wednesday.

I just keep thinking that somehow, even though tonight was horrible for John, and even though nothing really went according to anybody's plan, it was perfect. It's like my universe is completely in order because of tonight. I'm somehow content with life at this exact moment. And I also realized tonight how important the people in my life really are. When I was eating dinner with Kellie and Joe, sure, I couldn't help but wish my boyfriend was there too, but I didn't totally feel like a third wheel. I just felt like my other half was missing. But while we were at the restaurant, I just thought to myself how I'm so lucky to have them as my friends - especially Kellie - and how fun they are and how well we all get along. And when I saw John and realized he'd been in an accident - even though it wasn't that serious - all I did was panic. And I realized in the few seconds it took for me to turn around and go back to the intersection that I'd fall all to pieces if something ever happened to him. I just kept thinking how quickly I could lose him - how when you least expect it, the very worst can happen. But he's okay. And saying I'm relieved would be an understatement.

I don't know. I guess I'm just in one of those reflecting moods right now. I feel like I've witnessed somebody's dream unfold before my eyes. But I also feel like I've gained some kind of insight into the people around me and the relationships I have with them. I know that I don't take the people in my life for granted. It's just funny how even the smallest things like chips and salsa or a scratched hood can make you realize things like that.

Anyway, that was my reflection for the night. And now I'm going to bed.

Goodnight.