Crash.

I have a massive headache all of a sudden. Self-induced probably. Although, I was feeling a little dizzy at the end of fourth period today. Everything just hurts right now. I have a knot in my leg, below my knee. Don't know what it is. And some sort of pulled muscle in my back. Is it Friday yet?

I swear I didn't hear a word Mr. Bailey said in English tonight. Yet, ironically, he kept calling on me. That class just sucks now. I don't like anybody in there, since Chelsea and Zeb switched to the afternoon class. I wish I could've switched, but my math class would interfere. Plus, I figure one night a week is better than every Tuesday and Thursday afternoon.

Whatever this feeling is, I wish it would go away.

You know, on my way home from English tonight - or rather, on my way from English to Bi-Lo - everything was just so black. The fog just covered everything. But it wasn't like that normal, silvery fog. It was really dark. On Powdersville Road and at Pumper's, it was so dark that it looked like the power was out. It was quite creepy, actually. It's like the blackness was some sort of sign. God, I hope not.

I'm trying really hard not to think about the summer. John might be going to a camp at Clemson. It's some kind of counselor job. But it would last all summer. He would have to live in Clemson for 8 weeks. He'd be gone all summer. He said he would still get the weekends off, so he could still see me. But I just don't see it working out very well for us. I'm not going to talk about it though. I know nothing's definite yet. I'm just being selfish. Very selfish. I have my own reasons why I don't want him to do it. But I'll just keep that to myself because know he'll read this, and I don't want him to feel obligated to give up a job opportunity just because of me. I won't make him choose.

Anyway, I feel a little overwhelmed right now, so I'm just going to call it a night. I might even go to bed before 11. Who knows.

Goodnight.