Man, I want a Green Day t-shirt! Actually, I have one. But I got it last summer and now it's too big and I just don't like it anymore. I want a new one - preferably something black or gray. And I want another Marilyn Manson shirt, too. Of course, the one I have now is actually my favorite shirt out of all the ones I have. But one's just not enough, man!
You know, I've actually been thinking about getting a tattoo. I mean, not right now. I wouldn't be able to get one now because my parents would probably disapprove. But maybe in a year or so. And the only reason I started thinking about it was because I started drawing all over my notes in math class the other day (and today), and I've been drawing these stars. I drew one, and I put 'MM' in the middle of it (yes, for Marilyn Manson) and made it into some weird little design. I thought it looked kinda' cool. And the more I thought about it, the more I thought, "Hey - this would make a cool tattoo." (...and no, not because I drew two M's in the middle. I just happen to be going through a Manson phase). Anyway, I've been thinking about maybe getting a star of some sort. Maybe a smaller version of the stars Billie Joe Armstrong has on his arm (the "lucky stars"). Hearts are an option, too. I thought about the heart grenade from American Idiot. Or the 'swirl heart', like the one that's on my Manson shirt. I don't know for sure though. Actually, I don't even know if I'll even get one...yet.
I think I've finally figured out what I'm going to do with my life after high school. I'm going to go to tech, get my nursing degree, go to Clemson or USC Upstate to get my BSN (for nursing), and then go on to get my master's degree in nursing so I can be a nurse practitioner. I've done my research, and I think it would be well worth it in the end.
I got to meet John on break tonight. I took him some homemade spaghetti that my mom had made. I think he really liked it. And it was really funny because we were just sitting there and out of nowhere, he was like, "We're never gonna' be able to have sex." Wow. That was really an 'ice cream to global warming' moment, if there ever was one.
I need to stop thinking about my future - what's involved in it. I don't know how everything's going to end up, and I don't want to be disappointed if things don't turn out the way I'm imagining them right now. But man, the more I think about little Charlie, and the apartment...
Do you ever feel like you're on a roller coaster? And I don't mean riding one. Like you're just getting on one? Like you can feel yourself buckling up, strapping yourself in, and you're just sitting there, waiting for the ride to begin? And before it starts, you get that anticipation - that tingling in the pit of your stomach. You know the ride's going to be fun - the first drop's always a doozy. And you can already picture yourself screaming with excitement. But say it's one you've never ridden before, and you don't know how it ends - how that last turn is just before you go back to the loading station. You don't want it to be a let-down, but you're going to stay on anyway, just to find out.
...that's what I'm feeling. Right now. And you know? Now that I think about it, a roller coaster sounds like fun right about now, even though it's like 20 degrees outside.
I think I'm going to stop here for tonight. I think I'm going to enjoy all the thoughts that are going through my head this very second - whether they should be there or not.
Goodnight.
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I got the metaphor. We'll be lasting a while, if not longer. Trust me.
ReplyDeleteAnd that's a really good idea. You should the swirly heart on the MM shirt. A little on like on your wrist or something. But the stars were a fantastic idea.
And I think it's time I stopped eating twizzlers.