For what it's worth.

Ok, so tonight turned out ok after all. Before dinner, my mom got all mad because John and I wanted to go out to eat since it's his last night before school starts back. She gave me this speech about how I'm always doing stuff with other people but I never stay home with her and my dad anymore. So, just to make her happy I decided to stay home and have dinner with them instead of going out with John. Well, it turns out my dad wasn't even hungry, so he didn't eat with us after all. It was just me and my mom, and we ended up having a rather nice conversation. Somehow, we got on the subject of graduation, and I mentioned that John was supposed to be going to Daytona with his family that day, but he's staying behind so he can come. We talked about something else, and then out of nowhere, my mom was just like, "So are you not going to Daytona with John?" I was actually speechless for a second. I told her I hadn't even bothered to ask yet because I was sure she was going to say no. But she said she would. It's not an official decision, since she still has to talk to my dad about it, but hey - it's not a 'no'.

How awesome would it be to go to Daytona with John? Man, it'd be amazing. No, it's GOING to be amazing. I have a feeling it's really going to happen. And if it really does, I'm going to have the best graduation week ever. Forget "Senior Week". Daytona Beach with my boyfriend is a much better option. We'll have so much fun.

Wait, I just thought of something. The week before graduation, I'll be gone to Florida to see my cousin Shelby since I can't make it to her graduation. So, that means I'll get to make two trips to Florida, back to back, with my high school graduation in between. I'll be in Crestview and Panama City the week before with my mom and my grandma, then in Daytona the week after with John and his family. How awesome!

I hate that John has to miss the first day in Daytona because of my graduation though. And it's his aunt's birthday. I feel pretty guilty about it, actually. But at the same time, I can't help it. I want him there for my own selfish reasons. I just hope he's really ok with it.

And I still have prom to look forward to before graduation. That night is going to be amazing.

Man, this spring is going to be so wonderful. My senior year is going to end in the best way possible. And I have the perfect person to share it all with. If I didn't have John, I really wouldn't be looking forward to it all so much. But I do have him, and I couldn't be happier about it. I'm just so excited, you have no idea. I'm ready for spring. I know high school's coming to an end, and I know I'm going to bawl my eyes out at graduation. But really, with everything I have to look forward to, I think the end will be a lot easier to deal with. I hope so anyway. I just wish there wasn't still a whole 2 months left until spring actually gets here. Oh well. I can't wish all the time away, can I?

Anyway, I'm gonna call it a night. And I bet I'll have a dream about the beach tonight. I just know it.

Goodnight.