Here and now.

My expectations for The Curious Case of Benjamin Button were a little bit higher than they should've been. I thought it was going to be a really good movie. I mean, it was...but it was just the slightest bit depressing. It just made me get all sad and nervous about the future again. I know, I know - it's inevitable. But can't I prolong thinking about it just a little bit longer? I guess the movie just opened my eyes and made me realize that we really don't have all the time in the world, even when it seems like we do.

Y'know what really sucks? Winter. It's everywhere. And it lasts forever. It's only the 9th day of January. Well, 10th technically. But who cares. There's still 21 more days to endure of this month, and then there's still February and March to go through. I'm not really looking forward to it. School's going to be crazy enough. But for some reason tonight, the thought crossed my mind that I'm dating the same guy I was dating two years ago. Granted, John and I have both changed a lot since then, so it's not really the same situation, but still. Last time, everything was great around the beginning of the month, but then it all went downhill. Then February and March just sucked. And that's why I'm so edgy about "the future". It doesn't matter if John can see us being together for another year or two, or even for the rest of our lives. I can see it too. I'm just terrified of déjà vu.

But you know what? I don't even want to think about two years ago. That was then, this is now. This year - right now - is the only thing that matters, and I plan on making it the best year ever. I plan on going in a forward direction, not backwards.

Oh, and just so y'all know - John got new rims on his car. They look awesome. Be jealous.

Goodnight.